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']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]NThe thoughts of one's mind... September 04 A Legacy Left Behind...Listening 2: Beautiful - Shawn McDonald Is it just me, or has many people died this year due to freak accidents? I'm sure many of y'all have heard that our great Australian Icon Steve Irwin (The Croc Hunter) passed away today. There'll be some sad feelings for these next few days... it was unexpected too; my bro and I just got home from school, jumped unto the computer and heard the tragic news that our Great Aussie Hero has passed away due to a Stingray attack up North in Queensland while trying to film his documentary. The sudden shock left me breathless, just like that day when I heard that a Pastor I knew passed away earlier this year... All I can feel when I heard the news is sympathy for Steve Irwin's Family and friends. I'm very sure that they'll miss him greatly... Well, not being negative anymore, this is something I wanna encourage everyone up from... Death sure can be sudden and shocking, but it can be a wake-up call to many people around the world and people we know too. We don't know what day we'll pass away, and we certainly don't know how we're gonna die. But what we do know is how 2 live our life today and for our future onwards. Sure, Death has our time ticking down and sooner or later it'll be our turn, but that doesn't mean that we can throw our life away and live aimlessly during our time. This is a wake-up call to everyone that YOU must not live ur life with Complacency; Go out there into the World and experience things u've always wanted to do! You just never know when ur time will be up! I was talking to a friend about Steve Irwin's life and she felt hopeless about her own life. However, something came to my heart as I was feeling those old painful feelings when I heard that Ps. Eddie passed away. It dawned on me... ... Steve Irwin lived a Life full of Passion, Zeal and Honour. He was so committed to research reptiles and he loved his job. He died doing what he loved most, and I'm assured to know that he didn't throw his life away; He lived with passion within his job and he inspired Millions of others around the world to live their life to the fullest. My Mother told me something when I was upset and scared about Death... To those out there who feel as if their life have become insignificant; don't be like that. U're not living life with the Purpose that God has created u 2 be. God intended us to live our life with Happiness and Love, along with Serving and Worshipping Him. If u feel that u need to sort ur life out first before you can seek God and his Kingdom, DON'T! Jesus loves You and takes You as You are! You don't need to clean up ur life before coming to His Presence. He Loves You soo much and Will love to heal ur wounds and forgive u of ur sins and that's the greatest thing He can do; Love You as You are. Jesus left a Legacy Behind, and it's written in the Bible. Steve Irwin died today but he left an inspiring Legacy behind too. It's all gonna be written in History Books! Rest Assured and know that Steve has definately Lived a life of Passion and he left a Legacy behind as a result. Will YOU live ur life with Purpose and Leave a Legacy behind when u do pass away? What will you be remembered best by? Ur laugh? Jokes? Personality? Friendliness? Anything can contribute to that Legacy, my friends. Don't be ashamed if u realise that u haven't set one, rather start living ur life with purpose TODAY! God Bless Y'all~! And know that a Life is worth much more than Rubies and Gold... -']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N September 02 Golden Pics added~Listening 2: King of Love - Hillsong
More pics have been added in the church, school and B'day folders. I keep looking back @ them and just think of the awesome times I've had @ that exact time. Probably I'll show my grandchildren these photos and just ponder deeply about those good old days.
... But prolly in the future there'll be Hologram Cameras, lol~ It'll take pics in 3D and it might be stronger than megapixel cameras, hehehe~
I'll probably use this site more for posting new pics and stuff. Stay tuned for more updated photos. If u're wondering why I don't post here, it's cuz I've changed to: www.xanga.com/lt_smash
Tata~~
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N June 28 Since last timeListening 2: Believe Me - Fort Minor
Ok, so from last time when I was in the skool play Everyman... things were finally looking a bit brighter...
So far, I've got:
My P's ^^
A brand-spanking new guitar! So I admit I haven't really been back here lately. I've been updating more in my xanga site. Link is www.xanga.com/lt_smash
Well nothing much 2 say... have alotta take-home assessments >< Darn it, why ruin good times huh...
Hillsong Conference is coming up!! I soo can't wait! It'll be the 4th time I've went for the past 4 years, and it's always been awesome and different ^^
Well better get off. Good luck for ur assessments or whatnots guys ==
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N May 30 Last-Minute Glory...Well 2 start off this odd (But exciting week), I just expected school just 2 be like my last 17 weeks of skool...
This was my story.
I just slept around 10am in Maths 2nd Period. I finished all my hw for that session, so I decided 2 break in2 my daydreams and hopefully go 2 sleep 'til Recess started... I would've slept in another 5 mins, but not until one of the Actors came 2 seek me, saying that the Director of my school production Everyman has summoned me as an emergency... I thought to myself "Why me? and why urgent?"
So I went 2 see her (Had 2 break away from my sleep and daydreams ~_~) and asked if she did call for me... the situation unravelled when she told me that one of the main actors has injured himself (He dislocated his shoulder), and that he cannot act for the coming shows on the 30th and 31st of May and the 1st of June... she then asked something important of me: Am I able to act in his steed?
I took it all in slowly and realised that she was desperate 2 seek any actor... and cuz I did try out for the audition (But I failed), I was close 2 getting into the cast.
So with my final mind and decision, I decided to take part of the Play as one of the main characters. I srsly didn't know my lines, but it was accepted that I have a script in hand and declared an "Understudy" of the actor.
Every1 welcomed me in the cast, it was unbelievable: they were all warm and happy to see me, my old young-guns making me feel like we're in a family, my old peers from last year's Musical Joseph and the Amazing Technicolour Dreamcoat (If you didn't see it last year, bummer... cuz we had the best time every xD)... Dang, it was like re-living my old Glory Days.
So with hastened rehearsals and final lines to remember, I did as much as I can and so be it that I was successful... even though I was an understudy, everybody just kept on encouraging me as if I was in the cast in the first place...
My acknowledgments to them is this: Thank you all soo much for welcoming me back in2 "The Brotherhood" (Inside jokes about all of us in the Musical). I felt as if I've returned from the grave in the acting career, but I'm really glad to see everyone =)
With the full show swinging into action, I must hold my role as the main actor. I won't falter nor fail (Aye, I've got my lines in my hands ^^), and I won't let anyone down.
More 2 tell and pics 2 share after this week ends... Long Live my oldern Glory Days ^^
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N May 23 New Pics~Listening 2: Stationary Stationary - Anberlin
Thinking: Newer pics updated un2 the site ^^
Man, I haven't updated in here for soo long... that's what I hate about updating blogs; they need 2 be constantly maintained ~_~"
Well, I updated some newer pics in Church friends, B'day pics, Holidays and Skool friends xD Good times~
Enjoy ur week dudes/dudettes
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N May 01 Term 2Listening 2: From the Inside Out - Hillsong United
Thinking: Term 2 starting soon...
Well, as the holidays close up, just had some small reflection time of what I've done in the holidays.
I just realise that there r 9 weeks in this term. 2 me, I thought that it'd be kool 2 finish skool early n stuff, but @ the same time, I couldn't help but feel reminescent that I'll be saying Good-Bye 2 my friends, both young and old.
I told Sarah about this and how I feel about it. Guess I can't help but move on. I might see some of my skool mates, I might not. Only God will put people in my life that are a blessing.
You guys r my blessing. For some people I may not even know, life has just soo many surprises, so we hold our heads high and look onwards to life.
Hehe, guess that's the end of my short blog. Visit my Xanga on the left side of the site if u guys have time 2 read about my spiritual blogs. 2 my friends, some told me it's encouraging, and hearing that, I'm encouraged myself to go on with it.
G'nite guys. Stay Sharp~
- ']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N April 09 My Dream G-Tar~!Listening 2: Which 2 Bury, Us or the Hatchet - Relient K
Thinking: I wanna buy a new Guitar! I LOVE IT!
 Dang it, I soo wanna buy a new guitar~! Saw my dream guitar 2day @ Parramatta, costing $700-800. Just the price range I've been looking for, but not only that, it looks Sexy!
Here's the link 2 my dream guitar: http://www.yamahamusic.com.au/products/musicalinstruments/guitars/acoustic/folk/fg-series.asp
It's codename is the FGX720SC. I might give it a name once I get my hands on it, but Dayum, I love it! I haven't really decided on the colour, but the sound is crisp, the fretboard is smooth, the cutaway is just suitable for high-pitched songs... Maddness!
Hehe, Went 2 Parramatta Chinese Extention for some *Cough Cough*... Yeh, only Neil and I would know. We've been practising a song I made up for a friend of mine. The lyrics I'll post next week, but it's a secret for now
 Well, gotta learn my lines for my last exam: Drama Practical. It'll be easy n all, but gotta get my movements right, which is hard
 . Also planning 2 get my dream guitar next week, though I have a problem...Who wants 2 buy my guitar? It'll cost $250 - 300, and it's a Yamaha, Nylon Strings and Wooden hardback. The sound is nice too, but yeh, it's just a year old. I wanna get my new guitar soonish, so it's an upgrade I wanna get (Hehe, Advertising space here).
Lemme know if u guys wanna buy my G-Tar. Have an awesome week dudes.
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N April 02 Life Testimonies...Listening 2: Everything Will Be Just Fine - Relient K
Thinking: 2 Exams left, visiting Sarah this arvo @ Westmead Hospital, along with the coming Holidays~
Had a conversation with Louisa last night, who's one of the girls in Sarah's group. I was mentioning 2 her how glad I am 2 hear how she's coping with her injuries. Also bumped in2 Marga and her friend Rachel @ Pennant Hills Bus Station. They both saw her already on a Friday afternoon, right after she came out of her surgery.
Today's my visit 2 see how she's going, along with Louisa giving me a lift (Thanks soo much~!)...
I was thinking last night that God teaches people something valuable when something horrible happens. Like the 3 recent deaths in these past 3 months, it brought salvation for those who has heard of their testimony but aren't Christians. It's really awesome how salvation blossoms after hearing one's life story.
My mum mentioned 2 me once; would u rather be rich in life, but have no friends 2 attend ur funeral when u pass away, or would u rather be poor but have done wonderful things 2 people that they will remember u when u pass away? That was a good Question 2 me @ the time, but I guess I was determine 2 go for the second option: I love helping people in any way I can offer.
Well, nuff of the blogging... better "try" n study for Biology xD
Stay Sharp Ladies n Gents~ -']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N March 29 Knowing the facts on StressListening 2: Lifeline - Brooke Fraser
Thinking: The recent exam stress everyone's suffering from.
Knowing that it's the Assessment/Exam period for the Yr. 12's, I know that we're feeling this deep sense of dread and fear of what our results will be like. But it doesn't stop there; this mark affects our HSC and our UAI. "We don't want 2 fail" that's the same answer I got from my friends. Truely, I don't want 2 fail too, butin life we fall down, don't we?
"If u're prepared, u're ready. But if u're unprepared, then prepare 2 fail"
That's the truth behind that quote. But don't be bogged down if you haven't studied for the exams much; do Your best~ I've heard a fact that 80% or something of deaths is also due 2 students commit suicide due 2 exam stress... just think how sad it would be for them.
Indeed, after the exams, I'll be relaxing for my holidays, not 2 mention if I do successfully get my P's as well ^^ Hehe, best of luck 2 the Yr. 12's doing their exams~
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N March 23 A Prayer for my young GunsListening 2: The Time has Come - Hillsong United
Thinking: All the prayers I've prayed for my friends; let His Light shine upon them.
 The time has come, to stand for all that we believe inSo I for one, I'm gonna give my praise to You!
Just recently thinking about the prayers I made for my friends which I'm really believing something will impact their lives.
A sullen week @ skool so far... Exams r next week, and I'm trying very hard 2 study, yet I can't help but put aside a small bit of time just 2 pray for my friends. God, I know something Will happen 2 them Spiritually.
I know they'll carry out the legacy in skool.
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N
P.S. Hmmm, I also got one more Hillsong United album 2 give away... I dunno who but >< March 14 Revival~Listening 2: Take it All - Hillsong United
Thinking: Take take take it all~! xD
Skool had our jerseys ready 2day, but they screwed up on mine >< Guess I'll have 2 wait for another 4 weeks... hopefully it'll be fixed up by then...
Now guys, this is one of the songs from the new album ^^ Just one song that I love 2 mosh n jump around in (Especially with our gay dance moves @ the bridge xD).
The lyrics are here:
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Take it All
Verse 1:
Searching the world The lost will be found In freedom we live
As one we cry out
You carried the cross
And died and rose again
My God, I'll only ever give my all
Verse 2:
You sent Your Son From Heaven to Earth
You delivered us all
It's eternally heard I searched for truth
And all I found as You
My God, I'll only ever give my all
Chorus:
Jesus we're living for Your name
We'll never be ashamed of You (WHO-A-O!) Our praise and all we are today
Take take take it all
Take take take it all Bridge:
Running to the one who heals the blind
Following the shining light
In Your hands the power to save the world
And my life.
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Madd song, u guys will love it too xD This is one of the songs I'm aiming 2 play for the Yr. 12 Final assembly, so yer, heaps of practice n I'll do fine ^^
Also, just 2 add a small note, I've decided 2 revive my old xanga site. It's www.xanga.com/lt_smash. I think I'll post it once a month or something, where 80% of my Spiritual blogs will go 2.
Hehe, enjoy ur day guys~
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N March 13 Moshing, Jumping, Running, Crying with Laugher and BruisingListening 2: We Dream in Heist - Anberlin
Thinking: I LOVE MY NEW FONE~! ^^
Another weekend gone by (with some bumming, jumping, moshing and bruising) with Church life. After 8 is getting better n better ^^ Had our second Youth service of the Year just on the 11th of March, Sat Night.
Well, as I've been thinking, I've got a new fone with a new number (N I love the fone heaps ^^). Hehe, it's wayy better than my old fone (Good bye Nokia 3200... *Shoves in2 box* T_T).
Not only that, also received my assessment mark back for Drama, n I was soo speechless when I heard my mark: 18 out of 20! Yikes~! That places me rank 2 in my class, and probably rank 3rd -4th out o9f 38 students that do Drama. Not bad~ ^^ I'm soo pumped for that mark (Yay~!).
For Lunch came the funniest humour that made me cry my eyes with laugher; Yohan decided 2 call every1's name with "Mon" @ the end (He got it from Pokemon and Digimon ==), so I was Canmon, Yohan = Yohamon and Ophelia with Ophemon~ Lol~ Then we stumbled upon a skool mate named "Chia Hung", who was an Asian guy who had tanky muscles, so Yohan had some difficulty naming him... until he tought of a newer name: "Hun-Mon" or "Chia Mon". From when I heard that, I laughed 'til my tears came out, I was literally crying with laugher xD
Also visited Joe the Bum's house next 2 the skool (He didn't show up @ skool, even though he now lives 'round the corner xD). I decided 2 call his house "The Roost", 'cuz it's gonna be our new hang-out place after skool or something ^^. Hehe, there r indeed good memories 2 come, I'm certain~
Well, nothing much 2 post ('cept I love my new Fone ^^), lol. Enjoy ur week guys...
Ohh, also; Hopefully I can get the NEW HILLSONG UNITED CD! It's gonna be soo awesome n Epic~ Just think that it was recorded last year, 5 months ago on an October night. Such fun times indeed~
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N
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I just revived my old Xanga site. Check it out: www.xanga.com/lt_smash
It's where my blogging started off, hehe. Enjoy reading them ^^ March 06 The Heart of the True WorshippersListening 2: Weight of the World - Planetshakers
Thinking: That exact feeling of the Holy Spirit...
Hillsong Live Album Recording was a success! Every1 really enjoyed the night, n I've yet 2 show some pics taken on that night xD
One song touched my heart, and I admit that I felt the Surge of the Holy Presence in my Heart... It was that exact same feeling of peace when I trusted God the first time in the year 2003. I couldn't say, but tears streamed down as I felt the Spirit touching my heart, and the song that applied 2 the atmosphere. That feeling has never changed; it instantly calmed my worries before Jesus...
The song lyric really applied 2 me, but with an Acoustic Guitar playing as the instrument (Something completely different Hillsong has done this year).
NONE BUT JESUSWords & Music by Brooke FraserIn the quiet in the stillness I know that You are God In the secret of Your presence I know there I am restored When You call I won’t refuse Each new day again I’ll choose There is no one else for me None but Jesus Crucified to set me free Now I live to bring Him praise In the chaos in confusion I know You’re sovereign still In the moment of my weakness You give me grace to do Your will When You call I won’t delay
All my delight is in You Lord All of my hope all of my strength All my delight is in You Lord forevermore
While singing this, I looked into the middle of the centre, and I saw... Thousands of Christians worshipping their Heart out 2 God, such an amazing sight as I saw almost everyone lifting their hands... In that glancing moment, I saw the hearts of the true worshippers which shook me... I couldn't hold the tears back as I saw all this coming 2 me, and I just cried in worship 2 Christ...
It really is a peaceful thought knowing that You're definately going 2 Heaven because of One Man's Death. God comforted me that night, me knowing that I'll face more challenges this year with skool life and the HSC...
God Bless U guys! I feel soo Blessed knowing all of u's. If there is a way I could put this, I would soo trade my Life with urs, so that U'd know what kind of relationship I have with God, n realise that God is truly Living~! Have an Awesome Week!
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N March 03 Autumn arrives!Listening 2: Paperthin Hymns - Anberlin
Thinking: The beginning of a new season...
Well, thinking about Autumn that's falling, there will no longer be steaming hot days (Wo0t~!). Also wanted 2 wish Aaron, Lydia and Neil Happy B'day!! Aaron and Lydia turning 17 this year (Welcome 2 adulthood), but Neil turning 18 (Soo old ><), hehe.
The recent rain damage from last Sunday has finally been cleaned up in the basement of my house, but we've some unwelcome visitors... a Possum has decided 2 raid the kitchen and break n enter by the vents from the toilet! Dad had 2 clog the vent up with wiring (Which I now call the DeathCage~!!), but it didn't stop there... The Possum found another way 2 get in: Kitchen Vent. It broke through the next day, n we also had 2 construct more DeathCages (Such humour, got it from Futurama xD). Worst still, the Possum is still IN THE HOUSE! We finally found where it's hiding, yet we're scared 2 handle it (It may bite us really badly ><). So for now, we keep our furry friend in the storeroom, where it's been hiding for the half of the week... Man, what a start for Autumn ><
Well, just 2 say that Hillsong Live Album Recording is THIS SUNDAY! Wo0t~! I srsly can't wait for another day 2 hang out with friends, get some hang time and Praise and worship God! I also can't wait for the NEW HILLSONG YOUTH ALBUM! Coming out this Sunday too (Double Wo0t~!!).
The Album is Hillsong United: United We Stand. I'll pass a link here n now so u guys can check it out! http://secure.hillsong.com/store/store.cfm?product.detail&Group=Music&sub=%20&product=338
Skool doesn't start until 10:30am... guess it's an easy start for the weekends ^^ Enjoy ur time guys n girls~
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N February 27 Recent news...Listening 2: Rest in You - Hillsong United
Thinking: The lives lost this year...
To think that losing Ps. Eddie early this year was heartaching enough, I recently heard another news that shook Hillsong Church...
An RDG Leader of Tribe Reign passed away... he drowned while he was swimming. Worst of all, he was only 19 years of age, only 2 years older than me... Full of youth, his life taken away this passing weekend.
I'm sorry 2 hear this, I really am. I could do nothing but comtemplate the losses that has occured this year. I tell u guys the truth that I did suffer for half of Jan when I heard the news. It was too unbearable 2 comprehend too; a human life lost by a sweep of the wave. However, I've moved on from that, and I believe I'm much stronger to face them once again by another death that has shakened my young friends...
"All I know, is I find rest in You
All I know, is I find rest in You" - Mia Fields The song just gives me peace when I listen to it. It just brings me peace to know that He has gone to a far better place.
I would offer comfort to those that r close to them. I know how u guys feel when u've lost some1 dear to u, and it's just uncomprehendable just 2 think something awful happening to ur friend... Next thing we'd know, we're swept upon the wings of an Angel, going to Heaven and meeting God and living with Him forevermore...
Rest In Peace my friend. Know that everything happens for a reason. In due time, we'd meet those that passed away early, and we will talk to them just like old friends...
God Bless Guys. Stay Sharp for Him, and don't be bogged down by such hardship. Know that God is with us Always...
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N February 16 D&M Sessions~Listening 2: 24 - Switchfoot
Thinking: The fall of Summer and the coming of Autumn (NoOo~! ><)
Hehe, good song for such a rainy season that is 2 come (Emo too... hehe).
Had some good D&M Time with a good friend of mine, Meenal. Told me of some more issues that has bothered her, n I'm just hoping the guy would leave her alone. Had lunch, hung out with my friends @ Cherrybrook Shops (With Aaron, Zabrina, Ainsley and Meenal herself).
I just thought 2 myself as I was listening 2 her (And as I watched the rain fall in front of me, by my windowside when I did my maths hw just then...), and I came up with a quote.
"Life is full of Teardrops... but those teardrops are what forms our foundations of life"
It occurred 2 me when I remembered the side-effects of a friend's death recently. I became lethargic, with such a thought that life has become too fragile for me 2 live on. I remember not able 2 sleep those nights, as I was constantly tortured with the thought that my life has become insignificant... Sleep barely got 2 me, and dreams barely appeared 2 me. Most dangerously, I noticed, that I started to Backslide from God...
What is Backsliding, u might ask? It's when u fall away from the Most Beloved Father of all Time... it's when a Christian starts to fall apart, his or her faith starting to crumble, and they start to do things pleasant to themselves, but not to God. Mostly then, It's when they have forgotten Jesus Christ as their Saviour...
Yes, I did backslide before Summercamp came... I desperately seeked for help 2 pull me out, yet I felt as if my time is about 2 expire and I was becoming paranoid. I cried out to Him, "God! I cannot Prevail no more! SAVE ME PLEASE!! I can't Turn my back to You! I still Love You!".
One cry of my Christian Life as I slipped off the edge of the cliff... and something happened...
God encountered me @ Summercamp, as my Church friend Lockie prayed for me personally after he heard my plea... One thing that touched my heart and brought revival in my soul was when I saw his Tears forming and bursting, no longer 2 keep it 2 himself. The Holy touched him and I felt Life surging back into me with such a sight...
I realised; Life has soo much more in store for me! I can't give up now. Just cuz of one death I felt that has crippled my thoughts, doesn't mean I should feel that life has become fragile... No. I felt Life coming back 2 my veins as Lockie's Prayer shook my heart.
And 2 this day, I cling un2 that Experience. I no longer feel that life has become insignificant. Rather then, I feel that I have much more 2 encounter, much more friendships 2 forge and much more healing to take place.
If I could, if all my friends I've sought for counsel could read this, I want 2 THANK YOU for bringing me back 2 Life! THANK YOU for not giving up on me. I owe u guys such a big debt for bringing me back 2 Reality. Towards this day, I'm not gonna forget what has happened. I promise 2 use what I've felt as experience to help others that are going through the same situation.
Mmmm, D&M times indeed. Thanks for listening guys~ May God Bless ur weekends and ur life.
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N February 14 My Funny ValentineListening 2: Audrey, Start the Revolution - Anberlin
Thinking: Wicked Weekend... and what a Funny Valentines xD
Madd song with the Coolest intro I've ever heard! If I could find the song online n upload it un2 this site, I bet u guys will love it too xD
Well, the weekends have been an awesome rest. Did all my homework, so I had no problems upon that, hehe.
Wellz... Valentines Day 2day was good. I sent 14 roses 2 14 ppls (all white, I don't want 2 set wrong impressions xD), and I got 2 red roses back in return, how sweet ^^. It's all good, friends only, and I have no crushes (Or do I? hehe). Though I have more friends out there in the world from my school, so I would've sent roses 2 them too... but mehh, I sent sms's instead, hehe.
Better get going 2 homework. I'll post something else later on.
Stay Sharp Brothers n Sisters~! Happy V-day!
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N February 11 "Victory is already Mine" - JesusListening 2: Nothing... For the first time
Thinking: A Vision I saw last night...
Prayer group last night from 10:30pm - 12:15am rocked the house. My church leaders and friends were all there, praying for a breakthrough for Asian Outreach's first Youth Service called "After 8". We prayed with Hands and hearts, opening with worship and seeking God for that night...
It was until Shaun, my Worship Leader from church, told us all something. It was about Wars and Kings...
The generation now is that when the Prime Minister or President declares war on a nation, he only has 2 call his Generals on his personal radio, push a couple of buttons and then the Soldiers of that warring nation is sent off, with the PM/President sitting behind the front lines, only involved in the strategy of the war... However, I heard a quote that underulled this from "Black Hawk Down"...
"Once that first bullet goes past ur head, all that Politics n Crap go right out the Window" - Lt. Hoot, Delta Soldier.
It never dawned on me that the Leaders of a Nation does sit behind front lines, watching the combat and determining strategies 2 destroy that threat... However, my leader told us that he compared the wars of now 2 the wars of before in the Medieval ages...
When an Army is lead to the front lines to defend their homes or to take ground, instead of the leaders being in the back line, they hold their troops moral by their very presence. In other words: They Lead the Army in2 Combat, Front Lining with the first soldiers 2 Charge in2 battle. In this way, the nation's soldiers feel honoured by fighting front-line with the King of their Nation, courage gaining on them, Fear slipping out of their very hearts...
Shaun then told us that It's like God is fighting amongst our presence. He's already here with us in the front lines, fighting the Devil and His Forces. He's here 2 encourage us 2 continue fighting for Him, for our reward is Up there in Heaven...
I heard all this, and suddenly, I saw something...
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I saw Men and Women standing in the longest line I've ever seen, holding our positions and formations, wearing Armour and wielding our swords. Every one of us pointed our swords at the opposition... something dark and sinister in the far distance...
Satan had his Army assembled as well, calling upon Tormented Daemons and Devil Dogs, ready 2 tear out any soul's entrails and torment them as Satan has done upon them. They were Blood-ready 2 maim and slaughter any innocent being...
I realised with horror that there was a City in the middle... There are many innocents and civilians caught in the middle of our war, not knowing what was about 2 happen, still living life their own way. Righteous anger formed in my heart as I realised the Devil wanted to capture that City as well, tormenting more people and bringing them to His Misery. The army I was with was also going to try and capture that city too, but instead of doing harm, we wanted to help them. We wanted to preach the Word of Life in2 them and bring Salvation instead of Misery...
Suddenly, I felt fear pulling me down as I saw the most horrendous Daemons being brought upon this world. Their fierceness and determination was unmatched, as we were only Men, and they were Supernatural beings of Hell itself... I felt that I cannot prevail in combat, I wanted to abandon my formation and run...
What stopped me from running was the Sight of one Man wrapped in Light. He wore the clothes of a Prophet. He donned no armour whatsoever, despite the oncoming war... However, he had a White sword held in his hands, the most refined weapon I've seen in my life...
He walked in front of us, clanging his sword upon us, walking in silence but steady. I dared not look at His eyes from the distance, but he came to me and he stopped, sword touched to mine...
Jesus Christ... Saviour, Lord, King... He looked in2 my Eyes and saw the Fear. I felt tears coming as I saw his hands: Nail-scarred, a huge hole in the middle of his palm. He ignored that wound and it has become a scar for what He has done to save us all. He gazed into my eyes, smiled at me and said something I would never forget...
"Do not fear, for Victory is already Mine"
Hearing this, I felt courage and strength coming back in2 my Heart. I wasn't fighting for some General, I was fighting for Jesus. He could've stood at the back of the line, but He chose 2 stand with us. His Decision to die for us shook my heart: He really Did care. He wanted this world back in2 His Father's territory, and to achieve this, His blood needed to be spilt upon the Battlefield...
He then roared out loud 2 the Other Warriors "Men of Honour. It's time we Take back what is rightfully my Fathers!" With this, He charged first, with all of us charging behind Him, roaring a Warcry "EMMANUAL!!"
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Jesus was there Yesterday Night. That vision came 2 me so strongly that I felt as if Victory is already mine... 2nite's After 8 Youth Service will be an Awesome Service, with Salvation and the Holy Spirit Upon us... May My Soul rest assured in Him Who is 2 Come.
Stay Sharp Guys~!
"He stands against the Forces of Darkness, wrapped in armour of iron and cloaked in Faith like steel. In his hands rests a great Sword and on his lips rests a prayer. He is a beacon against despair and hopelessness, one who is valiant and vigilant. Where the Paladin walks, people follow and evil quakes"
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N February 04 Driving on the roads... without the proper license ~~"Listening 2: To the Ends of the Earth - Hillsong United
Thinking: Back 2 skool... and an unexpected event ><
Ok, ok. So I thought this week would've been sort of the same, y'know? I mean, going back 2 skool again, just being in Yr 12, and doing hw and hanging out with friends.
However, things aren't always as they seem...
Let me explain... My parents have decided 2 go 2 Queensland for a holidays (2 days only), so they once again trust me and my siblings 2 look after the house, laundry, food, dog, etc... Unexpectedly, my poor sister Joy became sick due 2 Viral Gastroenteritis (It affects the Digestive system, mucks it up, and... well, makes u wanna do ALOT of No. 2's ><), and she was in no condition 2 drive properly.
I had some options...
Well, those were the only options I had... Until Joy fed me a crazy idea...
"Canaan,why don't u drive 2 skool? U've got some experience in driving at least..."
Hearing that, I couldn't comprehend what I did next: I grabbed the keys, called out 2 Caleb, and set out 2 skool (In my sister's Green P-Plates. I couldn't find Red P-Plates in time xD). While on the road, I was nervous on driving, whilst Caleb prayed for us 2 be safe on the way 2 skool, that no accidents would happen, or no policemen would catch us (I'd be axed if my parents found out that I drove ><").
So yeah, I made it there in one piece. Parked my car close 2 skool, locked the car and I tried 2 look "casual" walking 2 skool, with the car keys hidden in my left pocket...
LOL~! What an adventure I had... My thanks 2 Yohan and Steph for offering me a lift 2 skool 2day after hearing out my story, but I didn't need it. Joy was fit 2 drive again, GLory 2 God~! I was too excited about this, so I told some of my friends and got some funny replies...
Butterfly: ... Isn't that illegal?!
Paul: ... Rebel~!
Corey: U're a Rebel! Yeah~!!
Tim: U Criminal!
Liz: Delinquent!
Alex:... U're Awesome!! Take me next time!!
Ben: U got ur P's?? Well done man!!
Josephine: Aiya, My God Brother Did that?! I didn't think u'll be like that! Why?! T_T"
LOL~! Ahh man, I am so not gonna forget this law-breaking memory/experience... all's fair in Love and War (And even better if my parents don't find out, so plz don't tell them xD).
Well, it's finally the weekends again, so it'd be church life and homeworking, hehe =="
Enjoy ur weekend guys~!
- ']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N February 01 Nature's beautyListening 2: Holy is the Lord - Chris Tomlin
Thinking: How Great, How Awesome is He~
School just started, and the first week is about to pass by quickly. I'm sitting here thinking about how awesome God has been as a Creator of this world.
2 Give it a start, a new inflow of Yr. 7's have come in2 our school. My friends and I reckon that they're getting smaller and smaller every year (Or is it just me, getting older and older every year? =S). Carla and Brendan are the new additions from Asian Outreach 2 come 2 their first week of High School, so I did welcome them humbly in2 High School life (They look soo tiny~ Hahaha!).
Well, enough of my personal skool reports, I just wanted 2 share something small...
Wherever I've been and seen for the past couple of days, it's like as if I've been seeing the beauty of this world. Sure it has fallen, with wars and diseases killing people, but it's like some kind of natural beauty still lies out there in the corners of the world. The sun's bright, the vegetation is greener than ever, birds r singing and... well, it's just my mind wandering off again ==.
If I could ask my friends 2 do just this, it would be that they could witness the beauty of this world. It's a partial glimpse of Heaven; Sunny and beautiful (But hot ><) in Summer, cloudy but with leaves fallen in winter (Cold too ><"). Like a song lyric by Chris Tomlin (Madd singer) and one of his songs "Indescribable":
From the Highest of heights, to the depts of the sea.
Creation's revealing Your majesty.
From the colours of fall, to the fragrance of Spring.
Every creature unique in the song that it sings~
This world isn't normal, that's what I wanted 2 say. It's truly what God has created, with every animal and organism and living thing thriving in this world. It just reminded me of how I stood before Manly Beach, with Aaron, Lydia, Yohan and the FOBB Gang (It's the group of crazy Asians that consists of Asians... including me ^^ I'm not offending any Asians here, am I? I mean, I'm one of u guys too, hehehe). I was struck by the sight of the beautiful beach (Aaron's remark when he saw heaps of ppls there: MAN, How r we gonna find a spot 2 sit down?!).
Funny remarks and jokes too, but I remember standing there, struck by the beautiful view of the beach, with the ocean in front of me, streching far away from us... Out in2 the Deep Blue Sea.
Hehe, once again, It's just what I've been seeing lately with my 2 eyes. If anyone could see the world through God's eyes, there's alot of beauty out there. Just that, it's clouded with heaps of issues...
Well, I gotta jet~ I'll be back once again~
-']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N January 28 Some1 Plz save Us, Us College Kids!Listening 2: College Kids - Reliant K
Thinking: What a Madd Song~!
Skool's round the corner, but I just picked up this song through a site, and it's very catchy for me...
Someone please save us, us college kids!
What my parents told me is what I did They said go to school and be a college kid But in the end I question why I did Haha. I may not be in College, but this is my last year here @ skool... Guess this may be my anthem for skool, everytime I go 2 skool (Hopefully driving with my P's), jamming out with my friends (Prolly Yohan mainly, hahahaha~!) and doing the Dance of Shame (U've Been Shamed~!).
Ahh, alast, I'm in the middle of doing my darn Drama Essay >< Can't get widned up like this... must... get... back 2 focus...
Anyway, Chinese New Year Celebrations 2nite~! I'll be taking photos once again, and I dunno if I should wear that typical Chinese Suit *Brushes dust away from suit*...
Ahh, good times indeed~
Gahh, better get going back 2 my essay. And then I have 2 wash the dog... Ewwww (Come here Assface @_@).
Stay Sharp guys~!
- ']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N January 24 Responsibilities in LifeListening 2: History Maker - Deliriou5?
Thinking: We cannot control our life and fate... but we still have responsibilities to do.
My dad came back 2day. We had a small talk about life (A shoft 20-minute D&M time with my father). He told me some things that life cannot be controlled, yet we still have some responsibilities 2 complete and uphold.
He gave me an example that we can't challenge God by saying "OK God, U will look after me when I walk across the road, and You will protect me from the oncoming cars that might kill me." If we do that, we wouldn't live for long anyway. We still have responsibilities in our life to look after ourselves. It is when we cannot handle that situation, we're at the mercy of God's hand...
My father told me that Ps. Eddie's death was painless. God called him early into Heaven to join with Him. It can't be a mistake; Ps. Eddie looked after himself and others, upheld his responsibilities and did not do life threatening things that will endanger his life and others.
He was a History Maker. A Darn good one too. He's left such an awesome legacy behind, and His Church has grown firm and stronger due 2 the unexpectedness. I Thank God for such awesome and Epic Growth!
Jesus had his responsibility, and he Upheld it to the Cross. Let us learn by this example that we cannot control our life and fate. But we can control the responsibilities and Morals that help us grow stronger Spiritually.
Stay Sharp Guys~! We only have a week left until school starts again... ==
- ']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N
January 21 One Epic Week!Listening 2: Ignited - T.M. Revolution
Thinking: An Epic week @ Summercamp... And the Passion-driven Life.
Summercamp 2006 was the Most epic time I've had with Christ! Every night Rally was something different, and I can admit now that I'm completely healed from my fear of Death. Before the healing, it caused me 2 be depressed and Insomniac, barely able 2 sleep @ night...
BUT God Healed Me! And He Gave me Purpose!! I no longer feel that Life is fragile and purposeless. I feel that my life as become re-ignited with Fervour and Passion.
Some pics 2 show u guys (And a movie if I could upload - Our wrestling match ^^). I've got heaps 2 catch up on, so I'll be back to post on this awesome Lifetime experience!
Praise 2 be the Name of God! He has turned the Ashes into fire in my veins! Hallelujah!!
Stay SHarp~!
- ']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N January 13 Rest In Peace... Ps. Eddie YangListening 2: On Fire - Switchfoot
Thinking: One man's life that passed away recently... Yet his Memories has brought upon happiness.
It was on this day that I went 2 a funeral Procession...
What I can say now is that Ps. Eddie Yang is one Awesome Man of God. He came 2 Australia around 14 years ago, and his life here in his new Home has been Great. He accepted Christ and brought His family in2 Salvation as well...
"It's not how he died that is tragic. It's how he Lived his Life 2 the fullest" - Ps. Gordon Lee
As I've heard from his Best Friends, Families and Mentors, he was a Man who was Self-Sacrificing to those that need help, Financially and Spiritually. Other than that, His "Cheeky" and "Happy" Attitude has earned his name throughout Hillsong, known as "The Happy Pastor".
He never grudged or gave anger. He's always happy and Bright, living his life to the fullest and carrying out his Duty successfully. I heard from the church that his Infectious smile can almost cheer anyone up. How awesome?
We got 2 say some last words before he was carried to the car... I walked towards his lifeless body in the Crimson wooden coffin, once filled with a Soul that burned with Passion, Honour and Mercy.
I can't really say if I did cry, even though it was an Emotional service, though tears did come 2 my eyes. They never really flowed through.
"I've cried all those tears away last week. It's over. It is finished."
We got 2 the Cemetary of Rouse Hill, 10 minutes from Hillsong. It is there that we laid rest to his Body.
"May He live Peacefully in Heaven, as He did here on Earth" - Ps. Serge Grygoruk
This whole week, before the Funeral Procession, I've been sitting at home, still feeling Lethargic about such Sudden Death. It is then I realised that I shouldn't fear it, for Jesus already has Conquered Death Itself.
However, it's not only the lethargy that has bothered me. It's his last significant words he told the Youth of His Church, I came and stumbled upon in Andrew's site. It still feels somewhat missing, but it hasn't bothered me after the Funeral Procession... May I hopefully not have a Restless week anymore. It's totured me long enough; Sleep rarely gets 2 me now since last weekend...
His happy memories is shared in the Procession. His love song 2 his girlfriend before asking for her hand in marriage, the youth singing a funny song about him, and lastly, the photos and videos that left an impact of his life. 2 End all that, the youth also composed a song to him, a proper and more formal one.
Many people cried, tears shed and flowed. Butterfly's sadness filled me with anguish now that He really is gone... But it's the testimonies that I've heard from his friends that has brought peace in my heart.
A Loving, happy, Honourable Man who loves 2 Serve God, loves 2 Disciple and raise leaders and loves to give happily to those that need help. What can I say about him?
... That he has indeed fulfilled his Purpose here on Earth. And He has never looked back since his Salvation. He truly carried out his duty, and his Mission has been Successful. May the Church Live out His vision.
"Rest In Peace, Pastor Eddie Yang. I'll See Ya in Heaven" - Canaan
- ']['h3 P[a]L[a]D[i]N January 09 Reminescent weekListening 2: Bad Day - Daniel Powter
Thinking: The past week... how everything collided 2gether.
A couple of hrs left until my last KFC shift. I feel kind of lost in some ways, due 2 the recent news and events. Ps. Eddie Yang, Leader and Friend of the Parramatta Chinese Extention of Hillsong, passed away in such a short time. Though I'm not in a mood 2 post about this yet, I'll post it later or after I've been to his Funeral this coming week...
I'm wondering how my last shift would be like. Probably busy as usual, though it feels like I'm leaving behind a small part of me, as I spent my time here, working for money and some work experience. Now that I'm leaving that place for good, it feels kinda sad saying good-bye to a couple of my friends there. Let it be that KFC Dural would be such an awesome place after I've left.
Something's also bothering my mind since last night's prayer for Butterfly. Something's stirring in my heart, yet I don't know what the Holy Spirit is trying 2 tell me. I'm still feeling lost in this for a whole day, n I haven't a clue or clear mind 2 figure what God's trying to tell me. It's like a small unrest within me, nudging me that something... is amiss...
*sigh* well, hopefully this week brightens up. Summer Camp's next week, so I'm definately looking forward 2 that. Hope it doesn't rain too next week. It'd ruin the beaching fun ==.
Well, guess that's all I have 2 say. I'll be back 2 post when I discover what's been bothering me Spiritually. May my last KFC Shift be a good one too.
Stay Sharp Guys~!
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